Moody

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

The title says it all. I'm bump, hurt, sad, my heart aches, depress, feeling gloomy.. can't think of any other words to describe it. Somehow, something just.. don't know how to express it.

Last wednesday, I was at home watching FRIENDS around 10am until a colleague of mine send me a message, told me something about changing my examination marksheet all over again. I spent the half day at school a day before that finishing my sheets and now I have to do it over again. God! its killing me. So I started working on it at 10-ish.. sat in front of my computer and my laptop. Opened my file in the folder. Took out my calculator and calculate the marks again. My back hurts. Nothing I could do cause I really wanted to finish it sooner and why.. because I wanted to have my holidays without thinking about work. Which b.t.w is not working. I had to do my item analysis and then finishing my presentation. I worked until 4pm cause thats when Hubby called me, asked me out to grab a bite. I hadn't have my lunch yet. Yes I was very hungry. I felt bad for myself, letting myself doing all the work with empty stomach. Kesian my baby. Mummy very sorry dear.

Getting ready, about 7 minutes Hubby came home. I went downstairs and we drove to the nearest restaurant. I was still famished, so I asked Hubby to drop me off at KFC. I've craved to eat Zinger Burger. Went home, had rest, took a shower, lied down on the bed, watched tv with Hubby. And then at 7pm, I got up, continued my work again. Argh! I could feel the tension around me, in my head, my body, everything. I could easily felt that my blood pressure was high. Almost had a headache. But after I thought of the baby, I took the rest I needed. Couldn't think of anything else but the baby. Didn't want to get myself all stressed up with work cause its not good for me and the baby. So I went to bed early that night. Missed to watch Heroes and C.S.I. I've sacrificed my tv time. Oh I forgot to mention, I didn't watch tv from 10am till 6pm. I was so into it.

So today, I try not to think about work. Woke up early, made breakfast for Hubby. Send Hubby off on the stairs. Went to my room. Switched on the tv. Lie on the bed and I get back to sleep. Yeah, I didn't do any work today. Its my lazy time.

But somehow, something or someone just without intentionally hurt me. I don't want to elaborate. Simply say that I'm hurt.. Anyway I have to go now. C.S.I is on.

10 more days till my 2nd year Wedding Anniversary. Syukur alhamdulillah we made it this far and hope for the better life in the future, insyallah, Amin.

Goodluck to everyone.

My Appointment

Love this song..

Artis: Anuar Zain
Lirik Lagu: Perpisahan

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi
Tiada lagi bersama

Seringkala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah
Bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

(Korus)
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu

Kasih tercari-cari

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

Soundtrack from the movie CINTA, one of the best Malaysian Love/Romance movies ever. Made me cry everytime I watch this movie.

So I went to my ultrasound appointment today. Hubby was with me. I guess he was so excited about this baby. He always accompanies me everytime I have an appointment. Thanks baby for always being there. He asked permission from his "Tuan". So sweet. We walked late coz my appointment was at 8am. I didn't go to school, jauh bah. I couldn't wait longer. I woke up at 6am.. Felt anxious about my appointment, tried to go back to sleep but couldn't hehehe too excited.

Arrived at the Sg Hanching clinic a few minutes before 8am. Took a number, got number 12th, wah I guess ramai tah sudah yang dtg tu. Waited for almost an hour. When my turn came up.. baca doa dlm hati. Praying everything will be fine. Syukur alhamdulillah the baby's in a very good condition. First thing I saw was the head. Eeee kiutnya.. bulat!!! I was super duper excited and very very happy. I saw the head, then the hands, the body and lastly the legs. Alhamdulillah Syukur kepada Allah. I couldn't explain my feelings when I saw the baby's head. Sedih pun ada, sedih pasal gembira. The doctor couldn't identify the baby's sex. I was abit upset about it. Baby tu tapuk wah! Hehehe and also masa doc moved around the thingy yg ia put on my belly, ngam masa atu I saw the baby was kicking wah.. hahahaha kiutnya.. I can't believe there's a life human baby living, moving, breathing inside of me. Its a miracle. Itulah kebesaran Allah memberi keistimewaan kepada seorang wanita utk merasai keindahan sewaktu mengandung. Too bad nda dpt minta print kan the scan. Insyallah I'll plan to go to a private clinic to have another scan on the baby and get the print of the baby. And figure out the sex of the baby. Untuk kenangan. Makin hari makin sayang. Makin hari makin kuat ia main tendang2. Its been almost 2 weeks since the first time the baby kicked. Even when I sit pun I can feel the baby moves and kicks. Nakal eh.

Syukur alhamdulillah. Semoga semuanya selamat. Doa2 kan kesihatan me and my baby.

p.i.s.s.e.d

Assalamualaikum,

Tired, preparing for the launching of eXplomaths at SMRIPAS. SMRIPAS and our school are the host for the event. Our school represent all the primary schools in brunei. Today was our 2nd day preparing our booth for the pameran teaching aids and posters.

I'm actually pissed at some guy. Well because he is so irresponsible being a leader for the drawing poster competition since I am one of the committee under the posters. Im pissed at him coz everything we have something to ask about the posters, what should we do next, made all the labels and all, he seems to have no clue at all.. A few days ago gb was asking about the prizes for the winners of drawing posters. She was asking us.. the committee.. We were so clueless. So we asked 'the leader', all he said was "antah ah nda ku tau, cuba tah kau tanyakan arah GB' and everytime we ask things that have something to do with the posters, yes he will give us the same answer. As if he doesnt know his job, and as a leader he is very bad at it. So I didnt talk to him yesterday and today. Hated him.

So I just finished making the label to put on the green board tomorrow. My own coloured papers, my own laminating film. Not that Im kata2..

Oh well, it feels good to let it out. Jarih dah my hubby mendengar keluhan hati me. Dont want to get myself worry too much over the stupid thing. Better think of my baby and my kesihatan lagi baik. Cian my baby.. ehehehhe okaylah want to rest.. till next time..

B, thanks for sudi mendengar keluhan sayang ehehe I love you unconditionally..

Laaaa~~~

Assalamualaikum,

Oh well, on monday, us the teachers had a meeting with our PPKD in the afternoon. So after work I dropped by at my parent's home. I came early, no one was home so I watched TV. About a few minutes later, mum came in. Then not long after that my dad came home. I was totally tired with work and now had to come in the afternoon for the meeting. It started at 2pm and I waited for my friend, Anne, to pick me up. Coz she decided to go together.

The meeting was slightly boring eheheheh boring pasal ngalih udah wah. And it was monday!! The 1st day of the week. I felt so sleepy. Been trying hard on myself not to yawn. Hahaha.. it started at 2pm and ended at 4.40pm!!!! Uwaaa sasak ku.

Tapi nyaman ati ahirnya abis jua ehehehe so me and my friends went to tutong to grab something to fill our stomach. Although we did eat something during refreshment after the meeting but that was not enuf eheheheh

After that Anne sent me home. I warmed up my car as soon as I arrived coz biasa my car ne lambat kan panas enjinnya. So I went into the house and had a lil chitchat with my parents. Not long after that, we heard honk's car outside. We thought it was the neighbour. So mum went out to see. I heard voices, familiar voices eheheh rupanya my bro, his wife and the latengest aleeya.

Its been awhile aku nda jumpa dorang. Apa lagi aleeya. So as usual nampak ja mama, tarus tah minta kipak tu ehehe manja.. kali aku tanya lah ia, "sapa ne?" I pointed at myself. Batah jua ia respon. inda ia mau jawab... eeeee gigitan ku.. alum tia panas ne kali eheheheh they were just on their way home from the empire hotel. Yep they stayed overnight there cause my bro had a meeting. Siuk le kana sponsor tidur sana. Eyan, his wife ceta about the buffet. Aleeya ate alot.. she ate fruits and ice cream. So i asked her how many ice cream did she eat.. She said "aleeya makan 2" and she showed two on her fingers. Ku tanya lagi "Ice cream apa?" She said, "ICe cream warna coklet sama pink" hehehehe baru tah ku dengar ia becakap.. she started to warm up.. she also told us that she ate fruits like watermelon and honeydew. Her mom told us that she was totally full hahahha kekanyangan panya.. baru ia tau hehehehe

Kali my mum lagi offer buah dlm tin. She gave her two choices. Rambutan or Longan. She chose the rambutan. eheheheh mum opened the can and put the fruit in a bowl. Before she ate it, she recite doa Al-fatihah and doa sebelum makan. She was getting pretty good dlm membaca surah Al-Fatihah. Aleeya took one big rambutan and put it in her mouth. hahahaha lapar masih panya. Alaaa aleeya kali ah.. inda buleh liat buah.. its her fave.. She ate 6 rambutans by herself. The rest of the rambutan mama tapuk hahahahah antam.. So i didn't stay long coz it was pretty late udah and my hubby was waiting at home. So i said goodbye to everyone, salam with my parents and minta cium dari aleeya eheehhehe si lateng atooo..

okaylah maybe atu saja.. its 7.40am in the morning.. Yep I woke up early cos I wanted to pee and wanted to send a msg to my dear cousin G-Bah to wish her on her birthday yesterday.. I was late coz I was totally caught up with lots of work.. okay take care peeps..

:)

Hahaha aku pun jeles kan kai skin biasa ja.. buleh kali ahh :p

No Label

Long Overdue updates...

Assalamualaikum,

Nothing much to say here. I went to the clinic this morning. Left school around 10 am. On my way home, hubby called. He said that he'll picked me at home. So excited that he decided to accompany me. He did come with me the 1 st appointment. I love you, B.

So went in, took my urine test and thankfully it was normal. Then waited my turn to be called. Dah tu, nurse cek my blood pressure. It was normal. Alhamdulillah. Pastu I went in to another room. Ada nurse sudah menunggu di sana. She was asking me all those things about morning sickness, discharged, balanced diet and all then she asked me to lie down on the bed. She wanted to hear the heartbeat of the baby. She was so bubbly, biasalah org veteran. She was so gigitan that she wouldnt stop until she could hear the heartbeat. During my 12 weeks of pregnancy, I couldn't hear it. So that was why I was so exciting the second I heard the heartbeat of the baby today. And the nurse satisfied. So today is the 4th month of my pregnancy (16 weeks). So very very very excited wished I could tape the heartbeat.

Then the nurse asked me to go upstairs to meet the doctor. It was just a procedure. It was almost the same as what the nurse did to me. Asking me all these questions. Then doctor asked me to lie down. She checked on my breast, my heartbeat and then lastly she checked the heartbeat of the baby. Yes!!!! Suka ku sal aku dpt dengar lagi bunyinya. Almost cried plg because I was extremely happy and totally excited.

So my next appointment is on the 26th May 2007. I will be 20 weeks (5 months) by then. And also my ultra-sound appointment at Sungai Hanching Clinic will be on the 22nd May. I really can't wait to see. Pray everything will be okay, selamat. Hope the mother and the baby sihat walafiat. Amin. So excited.

Okay I think that would be all. So tired with work. Non-stop, never ending, endless work. Well, I will never forget to take care of myself and the baby. Makin hari makin sayang. Hubby is always there for me. He cares for me even more. He takes care of me. He is so loving and caring. And yes he is also very excited about the baby. Ofcourse he is eheheheheh

Okay.. Wassalam..

Tagged

/I got tagged by Ammey!

Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about your self. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and their list names. No tag backs.

1. I am utterly a lazy person. I like doing my work the very last minute. I love wasting my time when I come to think of finishing my work.

2. Love scrumptious, mouth-watering, tasty, delectable, irresistible cuisine such as Beef Lasagna, Tuna Delight Pizza, Cheese Cake, Pasta, Spaghetti, Ice Cream, Double Cheese Burger, Chocolates, French Fries. If someone invites me to join for a pizza, trust me, I won’t say “NO”. Above all I’m a food lover.

3. I can’t draw like my brothers. Seriously, I can’t but yet I am teaching Art for my pupils. There this one period of art, I was teaching them how to draw flowers. I didn’t know what was I suppose to do so I just drew what I could. When I finished, I told my pupils that I didn’t know how to draw. My pupils were totally shocked when I pointed it out. Why? Cause they said that my drawing was fine and beautiful. Eh? I was like “What?!?” “Thanks!”

4. When I was a teenager, I had this bad habit of biting my nails. It never grew longer. I used to have an ugly finger nails. So one day, I tried to think hard how to get rid of the ridiculous habit. I got an idea. I put on a nail polish, not the clear type but the coloured type. Guess what. It worked. I didn’t bite my nails since.

5. I HATE LIZARDS! If I see one crawling on the ceiling or passing by from nowhere, I’d scream and run like mad even jump on a chair (trust me, it happened before)

6. I love collecting DVDs. The Dvd 9! Yep the $8 types. Yes! I love collecting Dvds with good quality pictures and sounds. Although its not as expensive as the original Dvds but its worth it. Why wanna watch movies that includes people passing by, heads and extra sounds like people’s laughing, coughing, sneezing and talking? And you can’t see better in a low quality movies. You can’t hear the sound clearly and it’s dark. I’m through with it. You can experience it when you watch movies in the cinemas. Trust me! You can browse thru my collections at home. You can even ask my brother, Aiman.

7. I love to keep any sentimental values. I’ve collected all my love letters with my dear Hubby when we were so hangat di lamun cinta in Secondary School. I’ve kept all our pictures dulu. We were so young and naïve. There was a picture of us at Yayasan at Merrybrown Fast Food corner dulu. OMG! Can’t believe it has been 11 years.

8. I Love wearing Black. I guess I just want to be unnoticed, invisible.. But my life is not dull. My life’s pretty great and exciting.

9. When I sneeze, I can sneeze more than 10 times at one goes.

10. My idol is Dayang Nurfaizah. Felt in love with her since I’ve heard her song “Seandainya Masih Ada Cinta” I’ve collected her albums. All original cd. I’d do anything to meet her face to face. My wish was granted when on the new year 2006 I met her at the Empire Hotel. I talked to her, took pictures with her, hugged her, kissed her on the cheeks. It was like a dream come true. Love Dayang! Wah atu ia.. emosi hehehehhehe

Got no one to tag.. poor me.. hahahahhaha

Yay!

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Happy 1 year 8 Months Anniversary, Dear Hubby.. May Allah bless our marriage. And limpahkan rezeki, healthy and long continous happiness. Amin..

Happy birthday to MAMA

Assalamualaikum,

On the 23rd February 2007, Brunei celebrated the National Day but since it is Friday so the celebration will be held on Saturday. On the 23rd February is also my Mum's Birthday. She turns 52 this year.

So yesterday, on her birthday, mum invited us to dinner at Restoran Nyonya. All of us were there. Mum, Dad, Judin, Me, Hubby, Maming, Eyan and the lil annoying, bubbly, latengest Aleeya. Its been awhile, so when we came into the restoran, Aleeya was like looking at me for quite a moment. She smiled, showing her teeth, then she said "Along!" She was so kambang. She sat with Mum. I was sitting in front of her. I played peek-a-boo with her. ehheheheh memang ia kambang.

She was holding Mum's phone at the moment. Then she asked for her Nini Haji's phone. Then she played a game with them. She asked Nini Hjh where is the phone. "mana tipun nini hjh?" Everyone was playing along asking cluelessly for it. She kept it in her pocket. This girl pandai udah kan main tapuk2. So i got an idea. I asked judin to call mum's number. When it rang, Aleeya suddenly shocked, looking around looking for the sound. Then she took out the phone and gave it to Nini Hjh. Then Mum said, "boh, polis tipun" Aleeya pun tanya "polis?" she was a lil bit scared ehehe then she didnt dare to take her nini hjh's phone coz she afraid that police would call back. So she asked for her nini hj's. Pandai bah diz girl. We got entertained by her.

Time makan, she dengan kambangnya telling everyone that she knew a song BINGO. So we asked her to sing it. Melateng I'd tell ya. Even the words B I N G O bulat ia sebut. After makan, we went jalan2 round the shop. She carried this big bag that filled with her pampers, shirts and botol susu. At first she carried it mcm Mak Datin. Then I ajar her to carry the bag on her shoulder. Eeee melateng.. ketuaan banar.. At first she couldnt do it. Her shoulder inda jua basar sangat so it kept falling down. Then sooner after dat dpt tah ia bawa catu. One other funny thing that she did was when she counted One, Two, Three using her three fingers. One - pointed finger, Two - middle finger, and three - jari manis kan. Our thumb and pinky join together. Tapi Aleeya did the other way and everytime she did it, we laughed at her coz it was so cute and so innocent. She counted One and Two and the pointed and middle finger came out, then on Three.. it was her pinky finger! can u imagine it. Try it urself.. You make a fist and count 1,2,3 and use ur pinky finger on the 3. cali bah this girl. She had the difficulty to hold her pinky and her thumb.

Anyway, after makan and window shopping, we went to The Mall. I lanja my family a movie ticket to watch Ghost Rider. But only the 5 of us sja. Maming and eyan wanted to rest and they need to check in at the Jubilee Hotel. They stayed there overnight for the event of the national day that they got involved with. Takut nanti payah cari park. So after the movie, we headed home. Got headache.. ehehhe

okaylah, maybe atu saja for the time being. Il blog again next time when i have something on my mind heehhe take care peeps.. au revoir..